Hey mama, I’m right there with ya!
The last two weeks have been really hard in our household, and I’ve found myself exhausted in every sense of the word at the end of each day. It’s not even that my kids are being that crazy or that we’re going through some awful trial, it’s the everyday little things piling up that are getting to me.
The fact that the laundry is never done for more than one day. That I pick up the same sticker book 5 times a day. That I have a toddler who only ever has to go pee when I’m nursing the baby. That after a long day with kids I see my husband for less than five minutes so he can take over and I can go to work. That every single minute of my day is planned out and I can’t just veg during nap time.
I know that this is what I signed up for when I wanted to be a working mom who also blogs and stays home with kids, and I love all of the things I do! They all bring me joy everyday, and I don’t want to give any of them up. But that certainly doesn’t make it all easier. How are we supposed to juggle all of the different roles we find ourselves in?
People say it’s all about balance…but what does that even mean? How can we consistently balance everything we’re doing so that nothing is neglected? If I’m being a “good mom,” that means I’m focusing 100% on my kids and thus being a neglectful blogger and employee. If I’m being a productive blogger, that means my kids are likely sitting in front of the T.V. or I’m pushing aside my work responsibilities. If I’m hustling at work, then I’m missing “ideal posting” times for my blog and the opportunity to put my kids to sleep every night.
Personally, I think that finding the balance in everyday is just bull crap. Maybe some days it can be done, but anyone who tells you they do it perfectly everyday is lying haha. So what do we do to keep going? To push through that feeling of being totally burnt out?
I really don’t know. But here’s the thing.
I leave my dishes in the sink for days because I just can’t bring myself to do them.
I bribe my toddler to eat lunch by letting her watch Madagascar on repeat.
If my baby is really tired but won’t sleep, I sometimes let her cry it out.
I eat way too much chocolate, even though I’m allergic to it.
I shower maybe every three days.
I take extra time to pump at work, because I need the quiet time.
I take the kids out of the house every day to do something fun.
I have a crazy supportive husband who forces me to nap and watches the kids so I can get my nails done.
I have amazing friends who bring me caffeine and talk me through the hard days.
My parents fly into town to give me a break when I need it most.
I eat power foods that give me energy.
I go to bed every night at 10pm regardless of what still needs to be done.
I talk about how I’m feeling, and ask for extra help.
So what’s the point of all this? I’ve found that sharing the difficult times with y’all makes them much easier to get through, and makes the happy and easy times much more enjoyable. It’s nice to know that I’m not the only one feeling this way, and it helps to talk it over with someone going through the same thing. I am SO tired, but I’m not ready to give up on anything because there is so much happy in my life right now.
If anyone else is having one of those weeks (or months, or just days) let’s chat about it! Let’s get it all out there and give advice. Let’s get past this hard time and have some good days and talk about those too. Seriously, DM me on Instagram or comment here, I know I could use the support and I bet you could too.